End of the railroad.

Well, here's to the last summer of highschool - cheers. :) Graduation eh? the last 4 years of highschool went by super fast.. seemss to soon to finally be in grade 12? I'm glad to be finishing it off, but at the same timee.. sad & worried about the aftermath. Everyone's going to go their own ways and friendships are gonna be long gone, sucks eh? there's reality for you. :( Bittersweet. This year is harsh going to dig into our wallets; Grad dresses, artona pictures, dinnerdance, council clothes, sports, whistler, winter gala, dances, yearbooks, and everything inbetween ahh! About one week left of summer, it hasn't even been exciting yet? It was supposed to be memorable being the last one before we grad but.. so much for that! Anyhow, i don't update much anymore? but i'll try to keep you informed every so often? =)

Hereeee's to grad 2010
<3

Absence makes the heart grow fonder,

but it drives the mind insane.
I miss you more than words can say.

ticktocktheclockstops.

eventful day, i love my friends.
<3

Break Even,

3 Days 'til summer school, oh the anticipation. Not. Work, Summer school, Volunteer.. Story of my life haha. Minus the volunteer I suppose, Same old. Anyways - CSI has taken over my time too! ah. I miss everyone, d-d-d-driftinggg. But s'all good, summer will repatch; hopefully. :) Hmm, hasn't exactly clicked that we're gradding next yeaar, grad 2010 yo =)! Students' Council '09-'10, weee =)! It should kick in soon that next yeaar is the last. These past 4 years went by really fast. =S Oh well, next year should be amazing. =) Expect the best, Hope for the best and everythaang's good! =) peacepeacee! <3

tada!

and that's the end of grade 11, more or less. I think this was really the turning point, everyone drifted completely, settled, and that's that. Grad next year is going to be a rollercoaster.. If only things stayed the way they were like in grade 9, the way its supposed to be. =) I could've done sooo much better this year, but i'm stupid like that. Next year, I have to settle down and really focus. blah. Well 2 more tests, a few finals and what not and that's alll. Grad 2010, whaaaatsup! =)

10 feet off the ground,

holding on to a thread.

circles,

I don't think I can do this, I can't shake this outta my mind. Howeverrr, i'm getting really stoked for council and SUMMER =)

**

it's been a while, but everything is more or less smooth sailing. Sidenote: Who are you to be calling me a bitch, at least I have respect for myself. AAAAH.

Too Soon.

I can't focus on school, I can't do what i'm supposed to.. I can't. I've gone against everything i've believed in and it's so stupid. Summer school? seriously? Why couldn't i have just done my homework and studied for tests like all the normal students, fack. I don't even want to think about next year, everyones gonna drift even more than we all already have. blargh, and I miss basketball.. I miss grade nine actually, everything was chill, so chill.

smoooth riding.

Everythings stable now, more or less. Minus the fams, that's never stable.. never will be; blah. Summer school... oh joy. Hopeefully everything keeeeps coasting, a month and a half left of schooool, phew.

I just wanted you to fight for me. And now, I'm done fighting.

PEWPEW!

GOTTTTTA GET MY SHIT TOGETHER, schooolschoolschool.

relief.

I had butterflies like crazy waiting for her to announce all the candidate results, blah. At least all that work paid off. Everyone had amazing campaigns this week, great effort alll around for sure. GG Guys. <3 memorable weeek, 5AM days.. ah.

Anticipation.

Elections tomorrow, that's all i'll say.


crossing my fingers.

Can You Keep Up?

Electionss, The pressure is on.. Lots of stringing left to do, speech, banner, posters.. HA. Two straight days of close to no sleep, sounds about right. Thank god I have amazing friends who waste their day chilling at my place cutting and stringing, making my life less of a living hell. THANK YOU GUYS, ily! <3 seriously suchaaa big help. 2 days and counting til this all starts and soon to be ends. Here we go..

(L)

SIENA, I LOVE YOUU!!! ahh. where would I be without you?!

bow chicka bow wow.

School is lamee. Elections coming up in two weeks, Victoria field trip too. That means two night sleepover, Elysia's > Chloe's - both days I have to wake up at like.. 4, wtff =( hopefully that goes smooothly tho. Summer school is looking really bright for math too, sacre bleu. Oh well, I got the LG Neon! and the LB.. thanks payya bahaha. well, Let's hopee I survive.

beeepbeep,

I WINNNNNNNNNNNNNN.


but I lose to math.

COOASTT,

Back and Forth, we never make progress.

:(

ihateschool.

oh man.

downhill, fast, full speed, down down down.

Gimme a reason
Why I'm feeling so blue
Everytime I close my eyes, all I see is you
Gimme a reason
Why I can't feel my heart
Everytime you leave my side, I just fall apart

And when you're fast asleep, I wonder where you go
Can you tell me, I wanna know

Because I miss you
And this is all I wanna say
I guess I miss you

-DarrenHayes.

FML

I fucked up. That was embarassing to the max, I need space - lots and lots of space. That was probably the shittiest way to end off Spring Break. Seriously..? FML.

In The Cave.

Hm, I guess I spazzed a little early. My bad. ♥ Chilled at batt manh's yesterday, watched Role Models bahaha FINALLY SAW CHOLEEE :) and pigged out. Then headed to the lpy's and watched a movie. Mhh.. it's already Thursday, spring breaks over so sooon.. blah, back to school. & Come bacck from the states loser, imy. :) Siena&Emily, you should come home tooo.. it's so quiet without you guys >=) lalala, ew it's raining again.. hm, work on friday.. gross -.-" okay i'm done scrambling for words :)

in the waay.

i don't want to be a priority, but i don't want to be a second option either.

forgiveness.

SPRINGBREAKSPRINGBREAKSPRINGBREAK - finallyy :)



OH WHAT?!

makee ya work,

oh elections, how you kill me. thank god for spring break :)

You're the missing piece.

Siena's leaving for eurotrip in about an hour? Chloe's already gone to Mexico.. I miss my bestfriends =( Well, at least Chol's is coming back on Tuesday bahaha >=) You know what bites? SOCIALS FAIR. yeah Nicole, I feel your pain. Sokugawa, you ruin my life. yeah, really not feeling going to my classes on Friday or Thursday, but.. we'll see? Spring break in 3 school days, aah finally.

Truth be told?

Aree you frigggggggen kidding me? choked. That pretty much drove me up the wall last night, but it was interesting. Anyhow, I was up til like 1:30'ish finishing my scrapbook again.. killer. =( Thank gosh that's over and done with, and so is everything elseee :) well, except the french speech - but i fail at francais so scratch that. I'm hoping for a good grade on my math test, aaah. Socials fair isn't even crossing my mind except for the fact we need to fix it up and if its actually only going to boost me up 2%, wtf. On another note.. Netball? School Dance? Elections? Club Basketball? yeah, i'm a little fruzzled. Hopefully our basketball shirts come in asap, that's really bugging me. NTS: don't forget to hand in socials field trip form, i am not doing that 4385904380935 word essay shit. SPRING BREAK, HURRY UP ALREADY.

it's all a game;

I feel really relieved, i'm not sure why.. I still have my scrapbook to finish. (Even though it was due today, woops.) Math test tomorrow, i'm really hoping to pull through and pass this one test. Hmm.. french speech, c'est tres stupide. OH! Sports banquet tomorrow, i'm somewhat excited since the teams gonna be there and giftcard ;) bahaha >=) but, pe leadership = cleaning, serving, mc'ing, clean up. oh blargh.. and sometime tomorrow night, I must find time to finish my scrapboo - YAY! not. whaat else? Socials fair next week, and guess what? I GET TO GET OUT OF FRENCH, the most hated class.. what were the chances. :) So, this is spae? no, not at all. This is called no progress being made. back to math, LET ME PASS PRETTY PRETTY PLEASE. ohtay, i'm out :)

PROPAGANDA?!

OH YES. So let me tell you the tale of our one day procrastinated socials fair project. We ventured to the library last weekend to get research done, no luck. So basically, we end up dragging it out til last night since it was due today. We're at Amanada's til 10ish and this project looks pretty good, not gonna lie for a six hour project.. with newspapers from back then and our outfits { all that jazz } so today our presentation was smooth sailingg. And guess what? WE MADE IT INTO SOCIALS FAIRR =) haha and I remember in the begining we were all "whatever, i don't care about getting it.. i just want to finish this" now we're all giddyish. Whatt does this mean? automatic A in socials! ahh, life is good. Out of our entire group, I think this helps most most since Amanda, Nicole, and Siggy were already getting like 70-80% and I was at like 60% bahaha. ANDD WHAT DOES AN A IN SOCIALS MEAN? that I can apply for AP Psychhhh, weeee party party. We're such hypocrites, "who cares about socials fair" LOL now Sok is telling us we have a potential chance of winning the whole thing. But then again, do I really want to spend more money renting out all that junk? naaawt really. Ah work today was boringg. This weekend i'm determined to make my english scrapbook ballin (: and finish my math homework, why Sigrid? BECAUSE LIFE IS GOOD. LLOL =) we're losers. Hmm, this totally turned my end of the week upside down. But walking in the halls in skirts - i felt like a moron, no lie.

Success and A Half.

So, we started and finished our socials fair project today which is due tomorrow. Pro - Procrastination much? It's actually a really sweet project/poster. We've got newspapers that are actually back from the war time and two antique radios, ballin. Everythings just sailing smoothly, oh I pray to god that everything doesn't get wrecked. Anyhow, I don't know what I want.. I'm losing you and it's effortless. (8)

- - -

mhh, I feel an emo week coming on.

All out of my element..

I'm too overwhelmed. Socials fair is driving me insane, it's due this Friday and we're barely started. I highly doubt i'm going to pass math, but the thought of summer school gives me chills. I wish I was more self motivated, then I wouldn't be stuck in this stupid situation. My socials mark is like 60 something percent at the moment. I've dropped chemistry, and i've screwed up my own future basically. You see all these asians, worried about 80% averages, and here I am.. only exceeding in my electives, it's ridiculous. Student Council 09/10 elections are also coming up in the next month, I wanna run.. but can I actually handle it? I don't want to go through running against a friend again and I don't want to be so stressed, not to mention losing. Club basketball starts up in April too, that really does not help. I need to learn time management and prioritizing. I think with all this stuff coming up, having a boy just isn't the brightest idea either. I'm going to be so caught up in everything and I tend to lash out - I don't want to be that girlfriend. So maybe space is best? I think I need time.. & Agh, Sports Banquet next week too.. why do I get myself in over my head? Forget this. Just breathe, one step at a time. Fack. Seriously, I'm falling apart here.

let's make magic;

Oh gawd, back to school tomorrow. Junior's V&D's in North Van tomorrow, should I go..? blah whatever. Hm, it's bound to happen sooner or later - the question is, Sooner.. Or Later? =\

ADRENALiNEE

Quite the day. Skipped last two blocks cus I was tired as faack and felt quite sick. But honestly, After we left school grounds - I felt good as new, wtf. So battmanh, paya, and I just bummed at JC.. most intense game of Crazy Eights, ever. Afterwards, i wanted to get a haircut - but we ended up justb bumming around. PIA MADE ME DROP MY ICECREAM, JERK!! =( 'baack to black' sso pro yenno? highfive ;) Ah what a short week, I love ittt. =) Too bad i'm still failing math miserably and watching myself fail chemistry.. I'm a failure, yay me!ugh, ss fair tmrw and work.... Anyways, not much to rant about todayy - later days =)

i'm gonee,

I think i'll attempt to make a long detailed post, rant after rant.

SO! Yesterday was our basketball wrap up shindig (that's what all the cool kids say these days) and it was all good times haha. We played a little scrimmage and ordered pizza, from Panago I might add ;) Jusst talked about all the memories, so chill. Lol Ms Guy & Ms K are the cutest, we all got handmade construction paper (LOL) made awards with the picture of an NBA player on the front in regards to whichever player suited us. I got Charles Barkley, who I thought was a singer.. but thats Narles barkley, or something. Anyhow, it was for my rapping - so pro.. apparently he's really mouthy too? Naice. STEVE NASHH Em! that was defs mine.. jokesjokes. I'm excited for the sports banquet though, and the awardss.. (cue music), sadly, I'll be setting up and cleaning up - damnit P.E Leadership =(. Oh well, killer season.. aside from all the ownages.

Today, Basketball game with the juniors vs. Terry Fox. Yeah - we lost. I GOT BLOCKED, WTF =( And she was so cocky about it, I was going to punch her in the face. Uhm, my bad Renee? LOL sorry =$ #6 was sucha ditz, she gets hit and goes "OWWWWW" SO FFREAKIN' LOUD. It's basketball, a contact sports.. build a bridge and get the fack over it. yeah? Lastt game of the season, sucks. What sucks even more? MY CAMERA BROKE, bitch and a half. I JUST GOT IT LIKE TWO MONTHS AGO!! My mom is going to literally murder me, wtf. It's JUST like my old one, the lenses are sticking out and won't go back in.. Bad Luck eh?

English: So Ms.Bettles is leavingg us and we'll be stuck with a T.O.C, I feel bad for her =\ Anyhoww.. We have a scrapbooking project which i'm surprisingly excited for =) Ugh, I have a B for term 2... what the fack is wrong with meee. Hopefully the week goes by smoothly without heeer.

Socials Fair? YEAAH RIGHT. It's due next week and we haven't started, at all. This is so stupidd, I have to waste a pro-d day on Friday to work on thi.. then go to work. Well who wouldn't want to spend their day off from school like that? JOY. bs. socials is taking over my life, my mark is dropppingggggg like mad crazy.

Hmm, my block C is quite amusing. I go to chemistry for attendance, claim to go to the cafe then just roam. Today, I bummed around in Ms Manhas' literacy developement class.. haha such a random class, but I love itt- so chill =) Then with like 15 minutes left til the end of class, I went to visit Ms Guy. Her class is so chill too, they were buying things.. weird, building a city or something. She wantss me to help out there or something, but once she's done student teaching.. i'm gone, no thanks to spending time with Ms Virksull and grade eights. OH. HAPPY BIRTHDAY BATTMANH! <3

Here comes the randommm things. THE ZIP UP TODAY EMILY, LOLOL. I wanted to say something about it so many times, I resisted. Ah Victoria field trip, blah. Sidenote? I'm tired of missing you, it's not worth it anymore. I'm done.. & OH CRAP, I forgot to do my french survey, shit. Anyhoww, i'm donee here.

Day&Night (8)

Time is going by so slowly lately, what's up with that.. Anyhow; On Tuesay, it's our basketball get together =) Final scrimmage and dinner with the ballers! Wednesday is the game vs. Terry Fox at 5 with the Juniors, naice =) mmh. ProD day next friday too! Maybe this week will look up. So yesterday was Valentines; overrated completely. But I spent it with the LPY, We watched Madagascar 2 and The Oc.. season 3 ;) Lol, he made me dinner.. and a poem =) cutee. Haha, he got me roses and on my way home I panicked completely because I didn't know wtf I was going to tell my mommy, I ended up making a fake card from Siena.. LOL, hmm.. I'm determined to get all my homework done today, let's hope. I really need to stop slacking -.- But i'm being optimistic that I passed my last math quiz, because I actually think I did good.. ah please!


"If I were the wind; I would blow you a kiss, tug on your heart
and give you someone to miss." ♥

Frontinnn.

How low can you go?! lalala. Valentines this Saturday, blah.. Why are such stupid days created? Anyways, basketball game next Wednesday vs Terry Fox - i'm actually so excited bahaha. Finally kind of grasping onto Math and French.. But my socials is downhillllllllll, no joke. I haven't handed in the map, 2 current events, or todays worksheet. I hate school, did I mention that? With a hugee card that has to be done too. Thank gosh i'm only scheduled to work on Friday, seriously. My knee really hurts, weak knees. DRAMA FEST! Seriously, stand up for yourselff.. what are you trying to pull. When is this all gonna go away? Can't wait for spring break. What else can I not wait for? Sports banquettttt! OhD, we really need to think of that gift.. and planning the banquet with Sherina and Jacky; gong show in the making. I need to step up my gamee now.

The Rush.

I miss basketball, alll of it. Spring season; please come quick.
But as for now, I have to get my act together with schoool -.-

Annoyances.

EmC and I are having a "What's annoying you?" talk, it's fantastic. Anyhow, feelings fade eh? Oh shit, French crossgrade this week - i'm so screwed. This sucksss.. Oh and junior basketball playoff game tomorrow at seven @ central vs. new west! When are we going to have our last game against Alpha? weaksauce. Honestly, I am bored of out my minddddd!! but too lazy to actually do anything.. this is truly lame, wtf wtf wtf.

Let You Go.

It feels like summer all over again, like you're leaving. But you're not, you're right in front of me. Aiya. It's like wanting something you can't have when it's right there for you to grab.. It shouldn't be like this. Why don't you understand that I can't be her, you're with me expecting me to meet the standards of how you imagine her to be.. and I just can't do that for you.. i'm sorry..

TimeOut, indefinately.

So, apparently we didn't have a basketball game today but at 5, I get a text saying there is possibly one. At 6:30, I'm headed to Emily's to get a ride to Alpha for this so called game.. 6:36, I get off the bus to have to walk home since we decide it's cancelled and we'll reschedule. Ugh.. Anyhoww, I suppose i'm done with chemistry now. I'll go to class as a study block for attendance, fail it and deal with it. As for math, gotta get my shit together - same with socials actually. I'm taking on more than I can handle and it's finally catching up to me. Playingg match maker, LOL oh Elysia ;) Can't play my own game however, I can't sort it out for us if I can't even sort out my own feelings. I NEEED MORE SLEEP, bottom line.

"He would be hard to chase, but good to catch and he could change the world with his hands behind his back."

inhaLe, eXhale .

I'm going into overload, everythings piling up. Truthfully, I don't know if I can balance you on top of it all.. basketball is basically over too, where am I going to take out all my stresss now eh? Bummer. No matter how hard I try to try, I can't stay focused - i'm tired of trying! Deep breaths, just breathe.

The Silver Lining Ends Here :

Basketball game vs. South tomorrow - it's like asking to be curb stomped on the face. Anyways, went to Alex's today - haha Superbowl, you suck. Should've been at work but honestly, who wants to work when you know that it's going to be ridiculously busy because of the Superbowl? Exactly. I really need to shop by the way.. I hate how money is an obstacle >=( I also hate how valentines day is coming up and i'm oblivious as to what to get the lpy. Anyhoww.. I have Socials and Chemistry homework to be doing; laterr =)

BangBang.

Got killed by New West, this is embarasssssing - no doubt. At least midterms are over and done with, hopefully I passed.. that's all I need, to pass. Haha, Alex, Pia and I made sugar cookies today - they were kinda odd. BUT, more or less of a success anyhow =) I really wanna watch bridewars, blah. I have work Sunday! nooo =( mh, anyhow; i'm hungry. bye =)

Hope it gives you hell, (8)

So I basically spent the weekend at the boyfriends haha. Chilled there on Friday, pro-d day ftw =) and watched Get Smart - kind of. LOL. We did balloons for Ashley's not-so-sweet-16 surprise birthday the next daay, fail. Played a game, then had healthy McDonalds, definately, =) Saturday was Ashley's not-so-sweet-16th surprise at Alex's, pretty good overall. Two cakes and lots of foood, and a hella long walk to get movies HAHA, that stick. and your tictac :) WOW i'm hilarious.. kidding hehee. Thaaankgosh, the awkwardness is gone =) Another level in two days, I would've never guessed - I stand corrected Matt. Agh, basketball scorekeeping afterschool tomorrow then practice, this bites. Work on Tuesday, game Wednesday against NewWest at HOME.. EMBARASSING ENOUGH?! Practice on Thursday, work on Friday - stressful. Then to add to my pile of joy - MIDTERMS and my french cross grade, all I can hear is Failure. Time to wing it all.

One Finger Up & I'm Out.

I think we've finally eliminated the awkwardness.. Let's hopee eh? =) Anyhoww, spent the day at Al's and just bummed around, literally. Did random things for Ashley's surprise 'not so sweet' sixteenth (: Hmm, stupid dinner tomorrow - I don't want to go at all. So randomly, I miss my friends.. And I know you might think this sounds stupid but seriously, I do. I realize I see them all everyday at school, but things are so different now. Everyones built up a wall between each other and could care less about each other unless they want gossip. How about you try actually giving a second thought about your friends? We used to all be so close, what happened eh? But enough of my ranting. laater!

GotGame?

Nope, we have no game whatsoever. Hence our brutal loss to Moscrop by 65, 84 - 17. That's hurtscore right there.. on the bright side, I did score 6 of those 17 points, ha. But that is such bs.. we lost to Moscrop by more than we lost to Byrne Creek, for real?! agh. Practice tonight, I need to chill. Anyhow - I should be at school.. but I really don't wanna write my essay in english, and I just decided I don't want to go to P.E Leadership either { that includes scorekeeping at lunch } so, basically i'm going to Socials.. but not chem either. haha This is why i'm failing everything to terribly. eh. Pro-D Day tomorrrrrow, thank gosh =) Gooing to the boyfriends to plan Ashley's 'not so sweet' sixteenth, haha. Then Saturday is the not so sweet sixteenth, that's gonna be awkward. I don't know any of her friends and i'm going early - this has EMBARASSMENT written all over it.. anyways, i'm hungry.. and I should go shower, LAAAAATER =)

time flies.

Happy One Month, I suppose. You seem to think less of me believe it or not, but that's just how I see it. On another not so great note, Byrne Creek stomped our asses - hardcore. Game vs Moscrop Wednesday night, getting killed again? we'll see. " Leo: It took a long time to get here, but you're finally feeling happy regardless of what others think. . " Well, how's an accurate horoscope for you? there it is. Yet you still doubtt me, blah. I'm exhausted. I need to get it together with school. I hate my job. I hate my family. I hate home. I hate being yelled at every night. I hate being expected to do everything. I hate how I feel like you're gonna leave me. Well i'm also hungry, so enjoy my rant of the day. (:

shy that waay

I don't think i've ever been that embarassed in my life.. this is karma catching up to me in 10 seconds time. After that, I didn't even want to ever have to see him again.. ever. Now he won't even drop it.. so stupid. Anyways.. laast night was interesting and fun, overall anyways. Made dinner, successfully =) Sweet potato fries and pasta! Touche Abbs & Slinks hehe, then Alex came and we all played Mario Kart on wii haha.. then Siena and Abby made some fondue, rofl. After Abby had to leaave, we basically had a chocolate fight =) Uhm, obviously I pwned Alex.. thanks for being an accomplice Siena.. LOL, we're sneaky like that ;) prettty epic when we thought Siena's dad was coming down the stairs.. SITTT UP STRAIGHT. then afterwardss, when Alex left, I helped Siena with her desktop project.. that was interesting bahah, then I went homee. Today? Went for lunch with the fams, super lame. Then headedd home and out to chill with Payaa. Stayedd at JC til Joe & Phezz got there, then dropped Phezz off at home and went for food =) then somehow.. ended up at Joes watching American Pie, disgusting. =P Cheeer up phezz (: aahh I have work tomorrow, and that's the day of Abby's birthday party.. =( that suckss. sorrry abba <3>cakefight. ;) hehe, and super stoked for my basketball gamess on Monday and Wednesday against.. Byrne Creek and Moscrop, nanana. time to get owned again! haha, i'm sucha pessimist. however you spell that anyways.. Alrighty i'm outt!

Worlds On Fire*

So our game against Central yesterday was pretty much fail.. I seriously need to get my shot down, this is ridiculous. Now i'm stuck scorekeeping two games tomorrow since I don't have one, stupid Cariboo Hill - we were supposed to stompp you yo! =P Anyhow, Studied during weight training for the I Exam, which I bombed afterschool.. touche Bianca, you suck. I wish I could sleep in tomorrow morning, Stupid mentoring.. argh, skating tomorrow morning too, first block =( and the english project, my gosh. oh haaaaaay; I finally got written up by Ashley. HAHA, she was so chill about it too.. weirdd, she gave me Thursday off - ballin. =) second day I get sent home early; i'm liking this (: LOL so, last night was the most randomest ( if that's not a word, it is now.. ) phone call ever! silly boy, you are not at all - under any circumstances gangster =) Ps: Patrick, blue flushes your purple sweater down the drain. thanks =( Well I better finish my projecttt, laterr (L)

so pro yenno?! EC SH JS BW PP <3

When the stars go blue.

Karsten , I hate you. So Pia and I pretty much got in shit today at work by Karsten, 14 minute prolonged - whatever man =( .. Therefore, We both now have verbal warnings.. I was saving those write ups for my no shows, damn. =P Anyhoww, at least I didn't get in troublee from Ashley for those no shows hehee. Work again tomorrow, killl me. Ball'd at Bonsor today with Tracy and Paya too, Mark was theree haha. so many asians, you wouldn't even believe it. Pretty excited for the triple header basketball games Monday vs Central; done like dinner ;) kidding. Haad a long discussion with Pia about club basketball this year, Hangtime or Filcansa? Why are both so so so far away.. -.-" BBBUT, besidess that.. I made fourty dollars today (: haha. annnonymouslyy, Why are you so cocky now? everytime you come back - you become a total bitch.. I know i'm one, but you have no right to call me one now; just listen to what comes out of your mouth first. aah... I need more sleep =)

starlit nights,

because it rains when you're here, and it rains when you're gone.

Hm, I need more sleep.. Basketball is making me exhausted. On top of that, I seriously have to start showing up to work. Ah - I completely winged my chemistry test today, darn. Friday tomorrow, this week went by super fast.. thankfully =) Chilling with LOLAA tomorrow! Then the weeekend, time to catch up on some sleep!

Good looking outtt.

Battmanh, i love you bud (: Good lookin' out ♥ You basically did a full on interview eh? haha, you're my hero; hands down. Seems like everyones starting to like him more than I do eh? =P Well i'm glad they're aquainted..ish ;) Anyhoww, chilled with Pia, Jay, and Matthew afterschool - so random lol.. ugh so soree and I have basketball tomorrow. I'll probably just ditch that and go to work? I really need to figure something out there. Oh wow - Friday is 3 weeks, time flies.. =S I seriously need more sleeep. AND definately need to have that talk. LOL Matthew, why do you do this to me? Tell me things like that, I should've known SO long ago.. I feel so bad. OH, thanks for the rain =) About time the ice is disappearingg. I think I could use another 2 week break, thanks. =P

Not That Simple.

I'm really not sure anymore. I hate this.. I know i'm a bitch and i'm really sorry... but I just don't know....?

Anyhow, to lighten up my mood { not really, since we lost } First game of the season against Burnaby Mountain.. and like I said, we lost. haha, only by fourteen! Better than last year by far - good work ladies (: I should go do something that'll keep me occupied now, laater.

Winter Wonderland

Did the title not give it away? Yet again, it's snowing.. and a lot too. I wish the snow, the ice, the slush, would just all disappear. Unless, of course, there's no school Monday due to the snow ;) . So the second last day of winter break, what'd I do...? Woke up, got ready, then headed over to Siena's to chill with Matthew and Alex. It was so dead for the first two hours or so? We just sat around and did.. nothing. So I headed home to grab my guitar and wii games, so that kept us occupied for a while. Stupid boy, " you got a promotion?! " - I hate you =P. Anyways, I didn't end up going to Emily's ( Sorrry Abbs! ) I just wasn't feeling the snow, at all. So at like 6ish, Siena and I headed over to Daniel's and stayed til, 10:30ish - for his super sweet eighteenth, ha. So I attempted to learn the guitar, but I have no music talent whatsoever.. so all I achieved was the tiny part in the begining of More Than Words. nanana. Aw, tomorrow's the last day of break.. Then back to all the torture, joy. Then again, i'll get back into shape from all the over eating i've been doing - well thank you weight training and basketball :). I think i'm watching Benjamin Button, the movie, tomorrow.. at 12:15 - so ridiculously early. That's basically it; I think - later =)

At a loss for words.

It seems like we're in an argument every two seconds, it shouldn't be this way. I feel like i'm constantly trying above and beyond, hopelessly, like the fool I am.. so whipped. fack. Why am I always running in circles over you.. I guess Ben has a point, Now that school starts.. i'll see you less? But it all comes down to how much we're willing to make this work. // On a not so brighter note, I no-showed work yet again today. Terrible, yes I realize that, but it's so ridiculously boring. I'll probably get written up soon, so I should start showing up eh? If I wasn't so broke ass - i'd be gone from there in a blink of an eye. Darn. Let's lay off the depression to end off, yeah? So tomorrow is Daniel Low and Emily Wong's birthday flings - ohD! haha conflictss. I guess i'll go to Daniel's then Emily's - best of both worlds.. forget the baby shower =P Two more days of break before school starts, Sacre Bleu! Time to get my act together, for real this time. Hopefully this weekend ends the break off nicely. Birthdays tomorrow, then see the boy Sunday? Anyhow; i'll fill you in tomorrow - most likely anyways.

new year, new page.

So, I guess that's not how you imagine spending your NYE.. at a friends, then leaving cus you were bored. But afterall, I ended off the year with loved ones and that was pretty amazing for what I had to work with. So we had dinner at Red Robins with everyonee, then afterwards, we just split up. Then, we headed over to Keith's.. but Elysia and I were in an emo state and peaced it with Siena =) tehehe. LB invasian yo. Not the greatest start after twelve, the lb was blargh. "You're so annoying", "How do your friends put up with you" - Yeah, thanks. That definately made my nightt... not. >=( Oh anyhow, I guess i'm sticking by this. So my New Years? Went for dim sum with the parentals and grandparents, haha my family is so messed.. I found out so many random things today. Afterwards, we went shoppingg. My mom complains, but then she spoils me anyways. I had $70, then ended up with nothing.. but that wasn't even spent on me haha.. 'belated christmas'. My mommy bought me another jacket anyways, and a purse =) Finally got my new ankle brace too. Ah, basketball =) Literally feeling so so so oover weight at the moment. I'm determined to lose 5lbs - watch me. School too, gotta concentratee on that. Well i'm routing for this year, giving it the benefit of the doubt. Let's doooo this =)